I’ll Smack the Hippie Right Out of My Mouth

I’ve been awake for just over an hour, but so far, it’s Saturday and I don’t feel like building a hermit shack in the middle of the woods. Based on the last few weekends I’ve had, this is what’s called progress.

While I don’t want to question this too much, I assume it’s because I actually have shit to do today (opposed to a normal Saturday, where my house is filthy and I’m recycling the same old jeans from all week long but I have zero motivation to address either issue).  Tonight is Christy’s birthday dinner, for which I am making the macaroni and cheese, which means I have to go to Trader Joe’s because they have really great cheese for reasonably cheap, which also means that I will spend more money on other stuff because it’s Trader Joe’s and I can’t just not do that, both because there’s a lot of cool things there and because West County stresses me out and I frequently spend money to cope with it. Come to think of it, that’s probably what everyone does in West County*, which explains why it’s so rich out there.

West County reminds me a lot of when I lived in Southern California. It’s a total car culture, and it’s not uncommon to see people drive across the street from one mega parking lot to the other, all the while acting out their latent rage issues as if they weren’t behind the wheel of a $40,000 machine capable of reducing an actual human person to a pulpy pile of scrap and bone. People seem to be in a big hurry to get nowhere and aren’t very courteous about it, so by the time I’ve gotten into the parking lot and found a space, I’m already operating at a peak anxiety level that is compounded by the fact that I don’t generally like going out in public to begin with.**

I will say, though, that things are different once I’m inside the store. For all their posturing while driving, the inhabitants of West County who go to Trader Joe’s are kind of polite when we’re trying to maneuver in the aisles together. I don’t know if it’s the tattoos or what, but I think I might scare them. I hear way more “I’m sorry, I’ll get out of your way”s at Trader Joe’s than I ever hear at Schnucks, and I’ve found that I talk like some kind of stoner to these people.

“Hey, no worries, man,” I tell them. “It’s cool.”

What in the balls am I even saying half the time. I don’t talk like that. “You’re okay,” maybe, but “no worries, man, it’s cool” is not a real phrase in my vocabulary. I don’t know if I’m being ultra-mollifying because I know that I seem intimidating to some people***, but I seriously want to smack myself in the mouth every time I catch myself talking like that.

Although I will probably do it today, and it doesn’t help that I’m wearing this weird hippie skirt today, either.  It’s not particularly attractive, but it’s one of the few clean things I have and it’s about a million degrees out and my car has black leather upholstery. The swamp ass in this city is nothing to joke about right now. I have many worries. It is not cool.

*For anyone who doesn’t live in St. Louis (and according to my hit tracker there are a lot of you), the “county” is what we call the “suburbs.” There’s a major divide between the City and the County here, and by and large, that divide means that the County has money and the City (ahem, me and most people I hang out with) does not. See that? You came for the profanity and you left with a sociological education!

**I don’t have social anxiety disorder. I can get along fine in public, it’s just that I prefer being alone in my own house where people can’t be rude to me or others, and where it won’t seem so obvious when I chuckle at someone’s buffoonery and then text a friend about it.

***I was recently told by someone on the Internet that one of the reasons that The Val Kilmer Project doesn’t attract a lot of trolls is because people are afraid to be shitty. Apparently, every time someone says something even remotely skirting the line, I have a tendency to say something cutting right away, which I honestly don’t try to do to be mean, I’m just responding in my normal fashion. But hey, less trolls!

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I'm Erin. I have tattoos and more than one cat. I am an office drone, a music writer, and an erstwhile bartender. I am a cook in the bedroom and a whore in the kitchen. Things I enjoy include but are not limited to zombies, burritos, Cthulhu, Kurt Vonnegut, Keith Richards, accordions, perfumery, and wearing fat pants in the privacy of my own home.
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5 Responses to I’ll Smack the Hippie Right Out of My Mouth

  1. secretsouttamyhead says:

    Are you talking about the Trader Joe’s in Brentwood? I didn’t realize Brentwood was classified as West County? I thought it was more Central West Endish… Then again… I always think of West County as west of the 270 loop.

    • erineph says:

      Central West Endish? You need a geography lesson.

      • secretsouttamyhead says:

        This I will not deny… I’m going to Google a map or something.

        • secretsouttamyhead says:

          http://www.stlouisaptfinder.com/stlmap.asp

          Guh… I’ve been back on the wrong side of the river for too long. I have forgotten most of my City/County geographical knowledge… Everything is beginning to meld into “Over There”. This map helps even though some dipshit switched the colors for St. Charles and South County. I know at least that much.

  2. Jess, you’re closer than you think. Brentwood is Mid-County, pretty close to CWE when you consider Forest Park Parkway and all that jazz, and yeah, West County starts around the 270 mark. Kirkwood isn’t even in West County.

    With all the West County talk, I thought you were talking about the Des Peres Trader Joe’s! THAT’S where you will be murdered by an SUV for sure. People in Brentwood are cool in comparison.

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